It was October of 2005 when I started to write a blog. Unknown to me what is the standard defination of blog, I just started to write whatever I wanted to write that comes to my mind. It’s been a year that I always changed my blog address for many reasons. Now that I finally understand what does it mean to blog, I finally decided to collect once again all the thoughts I had since I started.
The first weblog I had was entilted “Skeptic*” which means, “a person who questions the validity or authenticity of something purporting to be factual.” It was powered by Calliope. The first article “Invitation” is a reprint from an unknown paper that I just copied and posted as my first item. This was followed by my original compostion about my own understanding of my own Vows of Obedience, on how I live it as part of my daily ramblings that somehow affects my Growth of Fatih in the life I have chosen to follow. Part of my experience here in Manila is being invited to attend a National Convention of all Religious Brothers from the whole country. I was Looking forward to it. In many instances, I had always a feeling of being happy and sometimes, I caught myself thinking, giving reason to my simple joy, I’m Thinking Aloud. As part of my blogging, somebody asked about myself but somehow I can’t just tell my identity as a Brother unless I introduce first my own congregation. I wrote about us The Brothers. finally, I reached the final end of 2005 and celebrated my first Christmas here in Manila. And part of our activity was a recollection. I blogged my Year-end Recolection in an analogy: The Empty jar, that represents myself at the end of 2005. Two days after that was the foundation day of our Institute/congregation and I made the Introduction as I was tasked as a Commentator during the thanksgiving Day. For three months, I blogged with Skeptic’s.
Unsatisfied of my first weblog and I decided to study the basic way of blogging yet I considered myself as unfortunate in terms of studying new things especially that I was preoccupied of my studies and I was in transition from rural to urban setting. I just came from a “silent” place and came here to expose myself and be challenged in an outside world. But the availability of internet gave me a lot of opportunities. 24 hours of broadband connection and computer gave me the idea to make use of it to according to what is right and helpful to me. Once again, I was motivated to try again but with Blogger while I was still blogging with Calliope on that same year 2005, December. Not being to far from the first idea, I gave a second blog a title called Touchstones, (polisher)I just added “minds” that always remind me of being a thinker according to the result of my enneagram test as typical number 5 since when I was still a novice. I reposted the first article I had from my previous blog, Skeptic; the first article I had. I wrote an article about the success of the Global Visionaries, a group of young professionals from Metro Manila and abroad, who gathered themselves through Filipino Friend Finder. I became part of the group and was able to convince them to visit my own area of Apostolate, working with the children in a settlement area in Marikina City. Indeed it was a Christmas celebration with the kids that made us happy and with the children as well. Another article was about Going to Heaven. It was a cracked joke, a conversation between an adult an children on how we reach heaven. The kid was right that left the adult wonder how to reach heaven in a real sense. Next article was about Saying Yes - about the meaning of our lives in terms of commitment and self surrender. Once again, As I stated above, during the month of December, I gradually moved to Blogger, and again I reposted my Year-end Recollection Reflection. Sometimes, my life is not always at top, and there were instances of being down. I was given my my spiritual director a formula prayer of discernment and I posted it, too. This was followed with some feelings of Agony and left me thinking, being provoked and finally, I was able to determine why, because of a departure of a close friend of mine. After some experiences of feeling down, there were events that made me feeling up, too. That was the day of Consecration; once again. And there was silence. I even posted my abstract drawing using a pastel and oslo as my medium, it depicted how abstract life is sometimes, actually it was all about me. Indeed life is just like a cycle, when melancholy and serenity come then followed by renewed experiences where realization comes that God is always present; Life’s color. As I continued blogging, I also reflected about being a light to others. Somehow, my blogging was getting clearer to me, why do I blog and how useful it is to blog. It was becoming a purpose of sharing what I have, the experienceswith the kids, with my self and with others by letting God works in all things. I started to write about what are related to my formation, about what I have learned about the spirituality of living, how joyful it is to live in spite of pain sometimes, they give meaning actually. These made me sings and inspired to post lyrics of singers like Kym. One of my experiences in my apostolate affected me and it questioned who I am to the kids, and yet it became a challenge for me to look at my own self as a Brother, though this gives me inspiration sometimes. Before I shifted to WordPress. I was still able to post my own reflection about my sexuality and my struggle listening to my Theology teacher
about the experience of Wilderness in our lives.
I stopped blogging for a while and made infrequent visits but I felt the need of expressing myself in a way that I will enjoy and I thought, I found it by using WP. So I started blogging again. Month of September and still gradually ending my WP blogging this November.
These were the blogs I have posted with WP. Thanks to WP for the experience of blogging and being with the community of bloggers. As of now, I’m still blogging but with Blogger: Recedo (L): I retreat…; it’s being at Blogger once again. Thanks to the frequent visitors and readers who shared their comments with me, reacting and clarifying things, blogging with me. I salute you all; you came first before me.
Definitions from Dictionary.Com
Skeptic - a person who questions the validity or authenticity of something purporting to be factual.
Touchstone
s - A hard black stone, such as jasper or basalt, formerly used to test the quality of gold or silver by comparing the streak left on the stone by one of these metals with that of a standard alloy.
Added to the features are the 2-column side bars, search-this-blog form, recent entries and comments, peek-a-boo menu that includes my favorite sites that helped me figure out and familiarize my new template, a new tagboard and the visitors’ faces 
How I did came up with this change may have been answered by my post about the anxiety I had and of course, changing my paradigm in blogging. The title itself is retained but I added the “Me, myself and I” words at the heading simplifies my blog’s goal and yet it also aims for interactions with other bloggers and readers. Obviously, the “under-construction” social bookmarking is on its way. I just put it there for others may wonder and hoping that they will help me figure out also on how it really works. I visited the source sites about it, but I’m just to dumb to follow the codes that made me always lost! or I was just timid to study the codes patiently 
