Tanging Hiling
If I have to summarize my experiences during my stay in Cebu for Summer course on Retreat Giving and Spiritual Directing, I can say that it was fruitful and blest. I am still in the 7th heaven, as Br. Ted would say. The last day of our stay was spent for recollection which was designed by 40 years old and above age group. One of the activities was to reflect about our greatest heart’s desire. And I started melting crayons expressing abstract figures on the paper using my non-dominant hand and then later, started to compose a poem.
We presented our artwork with others. And while sharing my own piece, the instrumental song was played… it was “Maging Akin Muli.” One of the reasons that made me “sick” a week before. Br. Mark and I even wanted to back out from the course. What did it means? It was not coincidence. Something beautiful was happening at that time…
The artwork I did was some sort of melted blue, orange, red and yellow crayons to depict ocean, sun and sunset . It was not on my mind to compose a poem but with the reflections I made, I was able to compose one; something I didn’t expect that would still connect to my experiences last week. Thanks for the facilitators, directors and friends who saw the gift in the poem I made with a title ‘Tanging Hiling”:
Sa isang kabanata ng aking buhay
Buhay na iyong pinuno ng kulay
Ano pa nga ba ang hahanapin
Kundi ikaw ay muling maangkin.
Mistulang gabundok ang iyong pagmamahal
Sa iyo lahat, biyaya’y bumubukal
Ninanais ng puso, mukha mo ay Makita
Ngunit sino nga ba ako sa iyong mga likha.
Sabi’y pagmamahal mo aking ninanais
Kapayapaan ng loob na walang kawangis
Kapanatagan sa aki’y ibigay
Hanggang sa ako’y mamamatay.
Payapang dagat anf katulad
Sa aking diwa’y inilalahad
At ang mayakap kang muli
Tuwing dapit-hapon aking mithi.
Hanggang sa paglubog ng araw
Sa iyong mukha ako’y tumatanglaw
Makamit kang muli tulad ng dati
Abutan man ng unos o ng gabi.
Sa lahat ng tawag mo
Ikaw sa aki’y sumasamo
Ako nawa’y tuluyang mapapasaiyo
Sa lahat ng panahon, saan mang dako.
This reminds me of my heart’s desire…. and here, God seems want to tell me more about the song, “Maging AKin Muli.”
On this day..
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brVince said:
All images taken were taken while I was in Cebu for the Module course under the Jesuits…..
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ron said:
hays…
i would be really nice to step back, recollect, and troubleshoot, and live again.
i hope to experience spiritual healing you just had.
thanks for dropping by…
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i said:
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Lionheart said:
Hello Br.Vince! Kumusta po? Nasa Manila ka nga? Hehe
Pwede bang humingi ng payo? Hehe
Thanks… I need your help…
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Karen said:
Hello, brVince! Ganda naman ng litanya.
I’ll let u know kung kailan ang binyag ha. Bka isabay ko nlang sa bday ko.
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brVince said:
Hi Karen, text me na lang ha, nasa marikina na ako….
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brVince said:
@Leonheart, thanks for dropping by. anong maitutulong ko?
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anonymous said:
i’m inspired by the poem brother. it’s great. it was and is surely the Holy Spirit is working on you. i’ve been longing to enter religious life too, i have been exposed in church apostolate for 7 years now, since last year till now, the call within me is so great, that sometimes i could no longer hear my voice for it reverberates…yes, i like maging akin muli, i heard that song in one of our recollections and i just can’t help myself but cried. every time i heard that song my heart is bleeding. it bleeds for my stubbornness in heeding his call…btw, i hope you can for me a wanderer…as of the moment, i am really in the process of purifying my intention if i am really into His call.
Praying for you.
Solo en Jesu,
Anonymous
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anonymous said:
i’m inspired by the poem brother. it’s great. it was and is surely the Holy Spirit is working on you. i’ve been longing to enter religious life too, i have been exposed in church apostolate for 7 years now, since last year till now, the call within me is so great, that sometimes i could no longer hear my voice for it reverberates…yes, i like maging akin muli, i heard that song in one of our recollections and i just can’t help myself but cried. every time i heard that song my heart is bleeding. it bleeds for my stubbornness in heeding his call…btw, i hope you can PRAY for me a wanderer…as of the moment, i am really in the process of purifying my intention if i am really into His call.
Praying for you.
Solo en Jesu,
Anonymous
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brVince said:
@ anonymous/ rm,
first of all, thank you for dropping by, reading and leaving a message for me. I really appreciate that you were able to relate with my poem. somehow i can say that, God maybe wanting you to discern once more, or maybe you still want clarifications about your purpose in life.
i stayed in cebu to learn spiritual direction and seems that your experience is a starting point which you can talk with your spiritual director, if you have. listening to the call of God can be through your daily experiences of desolations (deep sorrows and pains) and consolations (inner peace and joy).
hope u can find one to talk with your discernment process.
rest assure, as you ask for prayers, i am praying with you for that intentions. of course, you allow God’s spirit to work in your life. there’s no such pure initial motivation in entering religious life or even in married life… it will be purified. pray for the grace to be enlightened and the grace of courage to accept God’s will for you.. remember, mother knows best for us, so does the Father who loves you more than a mother….
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applethea said:
as i shared to you before and now that i read it here. all the same- it’s a heart warming reflection and the poem you wrote–heart-moving.
you are gifted writer vince. please continue sharing this gift of pen to others so that you may continue to inspire many hearts that need light and inspiration.
and thank God for the opportunity to have a glimpse of the beautiful person you are. the pictures you posted reminds me of the beautiful sunrises of cebu and the gift of new friendship blooming across the distance.
God bless you brother and my prayers always for your vocation and heart’s desires. Good graces be with you as always.
tei
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