Rebel Without A Cause, Me and my Father
This journal notebook reminds me of what I did before after resigning from my job. It was just given to me this morning by our Dean of studies. I’m sure, ako pa rin ang “blue-eyed-boy” dito sa amin (opps!) Regalo na siguro ito sa nalalapit kong birthday.
The cover of this notebook depicts of being who I am even before, a rebel of my own and without cause sometimes. After working for almsot two years in a foriegn shippins lines, I felt the boredom and anxiety in my young life. at the age of 19, the position given to me forced me to be more mature and formed me to be more realistic yet curious being in this new world of career. I didn’t like it. Naging matanda agad ako. Even now, I still play with children in my apostolate. The young man at the front cover of this journal notebook depicts a tough and determined mind to pursue and seek what is for him. That’s me. I didn’t inform my parents that I resigned from my work and planned to enter the formation. What a surprise and disappointment for them but they were not able to convince me again to get back to work and support my family. I became a rebel of my own. In short, lumayas ako. Di sila payag sa naging decision ko. I was so convince that my life has a purpose and thats if I try to understand and explore more kung saan talaga and anong nararapat sa akin. I didn’t regret even after so many trials and sufferings that came after. Rebel nga… But after almost two months of being away from home, sila na rin ang unang tumawag to tell me na I am permitted to enter and pursue my heart’s desire. That was a joyful moment for me. So I did enter the congregation after a struggle to convince them.
But another joyful event of being a rebel of my own was when I was finally given a blessing by my father to remain steadfast and faithful, that he was able to see me as a young man who finally made up a mind to be an adult by making a decision of my own for my life according to what I have reflected. After few days, he died. That caused me to grief and sometimes grieving once more to finally see him as a great father who once like me, at my age, who seek for what was for him. who was also a rebel of his own. He was a former seminarian, and that also encouraged me to be one that until now i can say, I’m engaged.
My father told me stories about a young man who worked, wandered, seek for a happy family, raised a good family, asked for kids, disciplined them, help and followed them as they grow, and finally blessed them, and thats him. I am proud of him.P.S
Si James Dean po yung nasa cover ng journal notebook. Kasasabi ni Ate Sash. Title rin pala ng Movie nya ang nakasulat
On this day..
sasha said:
Rebel ka.. bading ako! hahaha
I’m sure your father is looking down at you now and smiling, kuya
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Vince said:
ey? hahaha! tnx nga pala sa trivia about James Dean… I’m looking for his movie “Rebel without a cause” Seems I need it this time eh?
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Sefree said:
i want something like that. i want a journal that looks like that. and if you wouldn’t mind, i might pick the same notebook sometime on the mall.
i used to be a rebel though i was raised on a decent family. my “real” family is already broken. what more can i say?
keep in touch.
http://sefree.blogspot.com
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Vince said:
about the journal, yes, it’s a good idea you have
It’s an expression and u have always the right. though it’s sad to hear about your family. Still lucky u are, there are kids where I worked have not even seen their real families…
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denib josette said:
ahmm.. thanks for visiting my blog.. recedo.. are you a seminarian?
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rHo said:
at least may napatunayan ka db?! galing! i’m sure… masayang-masaya at proud ang father mo sa’yo!
God bless po..
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Vince said:
PAX!
@ Deejay, we don’t call our selves as seminarians but “scholastics” hmm, same na rin as seminarian but on the final stage of formation. I vowed professed the three vows already.
@ Rho, yup! Im sure ikaw rin, magaling din, and having a good family in many ways, right?
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CeEjAy said:
ang cool.. seminarian po pla kayo.. marami rin po akong napakinggang kwento tungkol sa mga naglayas.. kaya po ngayon.. kahit medyo against ako sa mga utos ni mama at papa.. alam ko po na hindi solusyon ang paglalayas.. tpos ang cool din po nung notebook..
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vince said:
nope, not really a seminarian hehehe, malabo ba.
ceejay, hwag kang lalayas baka you will end up as a Bishop or a Cardinal hahah!
Serious, tama ka. escaping is not a solution. notebook, it’s like a life.
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rina said:
hehe ang galing! rebel! nyeh!:P
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mics said:
hmm… di ko pa to nababasa… ahehe… at least, proud father mo sau. ^_^
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