New Look for Christmas and Anxiety
It was still very early morning when I noticed that it’s almost a year when I changed my room’s appearance. I told myself that something’s going to be changed today. That’s it, something I need to rearrange or change, recreate and play. After the Misa de gallo, I had my breakfast and started cleaning my room and thinking of rearranging my posters.
Aside from the photo frames I made, I also rearranged the wallpapers I collected from the National Geographic Magazine’s supplements like maps and my favorite: space pictures that includes the newly released set of planets. I also made two space shuttle origami I learned from Odyssey Magazine when I was in primary school and hung them on the ceiling. I was amused like a little kid with my new room’s atmosphere. Of course, not forgetting the season of Christmas, I added a little bit of Xmas themes cut from gift wrappers. I’ve not done this so far for long time and Im happy about it. I had just a great taste of change today.
Perhaps, it was all about thinking some changes starting today. For two days, I felt down and so silent yet disturbed and just refusing to think about the issues I have this time: missing loveones this Christmas, fraternity responsibilities and many important and not-so-important concerns. I was tormented with headache and drowsiness until I got a chance to why-not-change-a-paradigm thinking. My Christmas wishes might not come true but the mere wish gives me hope to have a new look again. Just like with what I have done with my own room, it’s a manifestation of being new again; gradually perhaps.
In connection with this, it’s time to make an application for renewal of vows again. The deadline is fast approaching and I haven’t made any letter addressed to my superiors yet. The evaluation sheet is still unread and the worst thing, I am anxiously waiting for the evaluation of my formators. I need enough time to contemplate for this matter that matters my life, not only of the present but of my future.
Malayo ka sa mga loveones mo this christmas, ‘though…I’m still wishing you a happy and blessed one kuya.
Hmm, clean and well arranged room. Bravo po!
Good luck for the result of your evaluation…!:)
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Here’s my favourite evangelist doing up his room and looking like a science – space museum. LOL! I really like the look and vibe.
And thanks bro. Vince for the b-day greeting and prayers. I hope you’ll open up to Big Bang theory in the near future. That would be the day. Hahaha!
Cheers.
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