New Look for Christmas and Anxiety
It was still very early morning when I noticed that it’s almost a year when I changed my room’s appearance. I told myself that something’s going to be changed today. That’s it, something I need to rearrange or change, recreate and play. After the Misa de gallo, I had my breakfast and started cleaning my room and thinking of rearranging my posters.
Aside from the photo frames I made, I also rearranged the wallpapers I collected from the National Geographic Magazine’s supplements like maps and my favorite: space pictures that includes the newly released set of planets. I also made two space shuttle origami I learned from Odyssey Magazine when I was in primary school and hung them on the ceiling. I was amused like a little kid with my new room’s atmosphere. Of course, not forgetting the season of Christmas, I added a little bit of Xmas themes cut from gift wrappers. I’ve not done this so far for long time and Im happy about it. I had just a great taste of change today.
Perhaps, it was all about thinking some changes starting today. For two days, I felt down and so silent yet disturbed and just refusing to think about the issues I have this time: missing loveones this Christmas, fraternity responsibilities and many important and not-so-important concerns. I was tormented with headache and drowsiness until I got a chance to why-not-change-a-paradigm thinking. My Christmas wishes might not come true but the mere wish gives me hope to have a new look again. Just like with what I have done with my own room, it’s a manifestation of being new again; gradually perhaps.
In connection with this, it’s time to make an application for renewal of vows again. The deadline is fast approaching and I haven’t made any letter addressed to my superiors yet. The evaluation sheet is still unread and the worst thing, I am anxiously waiting for the evaluation of my formators. I need enough time to contemplate for this matter that matters my life, not only of the present but of my future.
nona said:
Malayo ka sa mga loveones mo this christmas, ‘though…I’m still wishing you a happy and blessed one kuya.
Hmm, clean and well arranged room. Bravo po!
Good luck for the result of your evaluation…!:)
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howling said:
Here’s my favourite evangelist doing up his room and looking like a science – space museum. LOL! I really like the look and vibe.
And thanks bro. Vince for the b-day greeting and prayers. I hope you’ll open up to Big Bang theory in the near future. That would be the day. Hahaha!
Cheers.
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