In the Wilderness

Once again I wander

In the wilderness of my heart

Dryness and weariness intensely felt

Thirst and hunger always felt.

Belongingness and loneliness

In the midst of happiness

Yet uncertain, unreal, it seems

Temptations, to stop, to go back.

Tempted to stop, I said, it’s enough

Journeying in the wilderness of the heart

Leading to the unknown

Unknown part of my life.

To the familiar world, will I return?

Not in a new place, not in the wilderness

On the familiar world, by heart is known

Should I decide, yet grow no more.

Anxiety, insecurity I feel inside

Hopelessness reveals something

Where my heart truly belongs?

In the wilderness, where God leads me into?

Or to the familiar place where I’ve been to?