Digging out and blackout

Nov 5th, 2006 by brVince | 0

Around quarter to 11 na kagabi, when di pa ako dalawin ng antok. I was just preparing my things to bring sana para sa araw na ito, last day ng lakwatsa since klase na bukas. Mga pasalubong para kina ate Sash and family; mga abubot lang din naman. Then, parang wala naman akong magawa, I started to dug out my scrap notebooks and photo albums; parang naging senti kaagad. I found out na meron pa pala akong two books that was given to me as a gift for my birthday last year, collections ito ng Blue Mountain poems. Salamat sa Brother Dean namin, na sya rin yung ngabigay ng journal notebook ko na “rebel without a cause.” Sa totoo lang, mabait naman talaga sa akin ang lahat ng kasamahan ko sa bahay at napamahal na rin sila sa akin kahit mara mi kaming mga pinagkaiba. About sa books of peom, yung unang ibinigay is all about Recovery and daily living while yung isa naman is about being great to have a Brother. Maybe it was great for my Brother to have me as one of his Brothers here. Same feeling din naman, that I’m having brothers from different culture and nationalities. Sa katunayan, nasasaad sa aming Statutes na “different in many ways, we accept one another” from article 51, naks! Medyo kabisado ko na nga ang aming Constitution and Statutes. Kaya even though I’m a rebel of my own way here sometimes, I have a lot of reason to be greetful kahit na di naiiwasan na may away paminsan-minsan.

Napansin ko ang photo album and agad-agad kong binuklat at for the first time napansin ko na marami na pala akong ipinagbago, medyo tumanda na at tatanda na talaga bukas ng isa pang taon. I have this collection of 1×1 photo pictures mula pa noong second year high school pa ako and every year iniipon ko talaga kahit pa mga ID pictures yun. I didn’t know kung malungkot ako or natutuwa dahil sa mga pagbabago, parang ayaw ko pang tumanda na para namang Im happy na tumanda na rin ako, especially with my outlook in life. I can say that I have found my own way, my ideals and values in life in a simple lifestyle na sa ngayon, I’m striving to live faithfully. At this age, may mga kababata ako na happily married na, pati na yung ex ko noong high school, nagkatuluyan sila ng varsity player namin na super tangkad and it happened na bestfriend ko since we were still kids. May isa na silang anak. Nakakatuwa rin sila. I still find my hish school life through these pictures sa photo album as frutiful kaya nasabi ko sa isang batang blogger (sorry, di ko matandaan sino na yun) na live high school life to the full dahil minsan lang ltalaga yan. I was also told by a brother that even now, we should think as Novices (no-vices, ika nga hehehe; as in holy talaga). Scanning here and there, nakita ko na naman ang picture ni Bai Rasda, ang dugong bughaw na anak ng Datu. Napakaganda nya, yun nga lang, napakamahal nya, di ko kayang bayaran ang dowrie, kahit sensya na sya at di nya alam na crush ko talaga siya noon, hehehe. Pwede ko ring sabihin na naging syota ko sya kaya lang ako lang ang mag-isang nakakaalam dahil siguradong patay ako sa tatay nya sakaling nagsumbong siya.

Nasa kalagitnaan na ako ng aking masayang moments nang biglang nagka-blackout! Nabitin ako sa aking daydreaming na nagpapaantok na sana sa akin. Half past 11 na that time. Buti na lang at nasa tabi kolang ang aking cellphone kaya ginamit ko na ring pang-ilaw until nahagilap ko ang aking profesion candle, kandelang aking ginamit noong nag-profess ako ng aking mga vows. Katulad din ito ng kandilang sinisindihan ng ikinakasal sa kanilang wedding day. Feeling ko kagabi, nagsisindi na rin ako uli ng renewal candle ko sa kalagitnaan ng kadiliman ng gabi. Di bale, satisfied na ako sa aking ginagawa at reflections kaya pinagpasyahan ko na kunan na lang ng larawan kung ano man ang nasa study table ko… Satisfying and it is good to look into the past sometimes, to reminisce the beauty of having good and bad experiences. Thanks to the Brothers who remembered me in many ways, to my former classmates na nagbigay kulay sa high school life ko and to the people I interacted with noong nasa Jolo pa ako. Hmm, ano nga ba ang nasa Jolo at ilang beses ko na itong binabalik-balikan…. Next time, I want to go back there in memory… Have a nive Sunday. Be blessed!

On this day..

My Gratefulness to God's Faithfulness - 2008
Year Ender: Redefining BLOG and Why Do I Blog - 2006

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On November 5th, 2006 at 8:19 pm
potpot said:

wah.. ako auko na makita sarili x mga id picz ko.. hahha.. khya

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On November 6th, 2006 at 12:48 am
melai said:

speaking of old pics may naalala akong napakalumang litrato ko noong bata pa ako …. and I was planning to post something like then and now …la lang aliw ako sa ideya wala kasing magpopost ng then and now ko sa magz e kaya sa blog ko na lang lol …ei happy birthday po

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