Of all the reflections I made, these were the “Dance with my Father,” “Asylum, Tell Me Why, Resillience and Recedo” and “Today, on my Birthday” entry were at least, the best or most reflective for me. And all of the humor entries I posted, these were the “My Love Story,“ “Trip-trip na lang” and Jeepney Memories: driving like a pro (Big Boy Me) as the best. I based my weighing by feelings, not by according to what’s famous or whatsoever so it’s just fair ^_^

The last day of December is the day for Year-end Recollection. I’m going to spend a day of prayer and contemplation, and to recollect all my experiences I had during the year. This is one way that will help me grow in many aspects as a Brother; it is another way to be intimate to myself, to others and to God.

I thank you all for journeying with me this year, for all the people I interacted with here on the web and in person. I hope and pray for all of you that we may be able to count our blessings and thank the Great Author as I remember you today. God bless and have a prosperous New Year to all of you!

How I did came up with this change may have been answered by my post about the anxiety I had and of course, changing my paradigm in blogging. The title itself is retained but I added the “Me, myself and I” words at the heading simplifies my blog’s goal and yet it also aims for interactions with other bloggers and readers. Obviously, the “under-construction” social bookmarking is on its way. I just put it there for others may wonder and hoping that they will help me figure out also on how it really works. I visited the source sites about it, but I’m just to dumb to follow the codes that made me always lost! or I was just timid to study the codes patiently

All the credits are due to the different blog hackers I’ve been chatting with and mostly, visiting their blogs and reading articles about the new Blogger from beta status. Avatar of Bloggeratto, Hans of Beautifulbeta, Annie of Bloggeruniversity, Hackospehere, and Louiss of Bloggingsecret helped me with the codes. All of them have bright ideas about the features I added to my own blog. As an expression of gratitude, I added them to my favorite sites that can be found at my sidebar,at “+ /- Must Read Blog Hackers.” You must visit them to find out what I mean here.

For couple of days of being focused on these, I had a nightmare one night that my blog mates whom I always visit everyday got mad at me since I’ve never been visiting them for many days from the time I started changing the lay out of my blog! ‘Twas true that I’ve been busy and never visited most of them even just to greet them a Merry Christmas, but please, h’wag kayong magalit ha, lol! Few days from now, back to normal na ako: reflective and will retreat again. Should I say my new year greetings now? Happy New Year!!!

Before the year ends, I will make an index of all my posts.

Collecting the CD cases from my drawer, I started to do something new: CD case Photo Frames. I got this idea from LifeHacker that links to Photojojo on how to make a wall photo frame out of CD case. I have still my old post cards from Reader’s Digest collection of arts. Just cutting cardboards and colored paper, I got six new decorations (Photo inset).

Aside from the photo frames I made, I also rearranged the wallpapers I collected from the National Geographic Magazine’s supplements like maps and my favorite: space pictures that includes the newly released set of planets. I also made two space shuttle origami I learned from Odyssey Magazine when I was in primary school and hung them on the ceiling. I was amused like a little kid with my new room’s atmosphere. Of course, not forgetting the season of Christmas, I added a little bit of Xmas themes cut from gift wrappers. I’ve not done this so far for long time and Im happy about it. I had just a great taste of change today.

Perhaps, it was all about thinking some changes starting today. For two days, I felt down and so silent yet disturbed and just refusing to think about the issues I have this time: missing loveones this Christmas, fraternity responsibilities and many important and not-so-important concerns. I was tormented with headache and drowsiness until I got a chance to why-not-change-a-paradigm thinking. My Christmas wishes might not come true but the mere wish gives me hope to have a new look again. Just like with what I have done with my own room, it’s a manifestation of being new again; gradually perhaps.

In connection with this, it’s time to make an application for renewal of vows again. The deadline is fast approaching and I haven’t made any letter addressed to my superiors yet. The evaluation sheet is still unread and the worst thing, I am anxiously waiting for the evaluation of my formators. I need enough time to contemplate for this matter that matters my life, not only of the present but of my future.